its been century since my last update,, this time i post up this post is to release some of my tension.

today(11-03-2010) is my worst nigthmare.
today, is the day spm results released.
i juz cant believe it. i noe i can do better than this. but why can this happen to me.
its not like i never study. in fact i studied quite hard and quite confident this time.
but it ended up like shit. i juz truly disappointed w/ it.
once i got my results, sshhoooosssshhhh.........
i'm gone.
i went to a random car park, then i park my car there. then i started crying alone, all by myself. bcuz i juz cant control it..
the tears burst out from my lovely eyes. then i look myself in the mirror.
OMFG i look like a red-nose-reindeer+ a ghost.
then suddenly, a guard nearby knocked on my window. i winded down my window bcuz i tot i cant park there or something. of course i make sure the guard was not holding a weapon or smtg. he's an old man. he looked quite friendly of course.
then surprisingly, he asked me, "hey miss, what happen? r u alrite?" then i was like... "hmm, ya. i'm ok. dun worry". then i winded back my window.
luckily he didn't shock to death by looking at my scary face. phheww..
then i continued crying for bout 20 mins. while i was crying, my phone non-stop ringing and ringing. sry friends. i seriously couldn't talk. i can barely breathe.
but after i calm myself down, i thought of my grandma.
she sayang-ed me the most.
she loves me for who i m.
she doesnt like me to change myself and try to act like others. she wants me to act like who i m.
i love her i miss her sooo sooo much.
during tht moment, what i wanted the most was her big big hug,
i can still rmb when i stayed with her in kulim when i was young, wheni was 2-3 and5-6. i loved going back to kulim during kindergarten holidays.
i miss the days when she held my hand and walk to the market.
sometimes, we even ran back home if it rains.
i miss when she scratched my back until i fell asleep.
i miss when we talked everynight until we fell alsleep.
i miss when we counted "1..2..3.." then we promised not to talk and juz sleep, bcuz we had too much to talk, if we didn;t use this method, we can juz until the next morning. haha
she has NO temper AT ALL. i dunno where can we get a woman with no temper.
she talks very softly. and gently even though i've done something wrong.;
i miss when she took a syringe full with anti-biotic or medication and chased me all around the house. juz to make sure i recover faster.


I WANT UR HUG NOW MAMA. can u pls come and gimme a last hug.
i get results tht did not satisfy me, i noe u're the only one tht wun blame me as long as i've tried my best.
i love u and miss u always.
u're always the best besides my mummy daddy.


then, i drove like a wind to the temple where my grandma was placed.
then i talked to her for a lil while.
i hope she can hear tht.
i sat at the cushion nearby. i nearly fell asleep. Zzzzz~ ( i think bcuz i cried too much)
then....complete silent....
"I WANT NOBODY NOBODY BUT U!! ~ I WANT NOBODY NOBODY BUT U!~~~ my phone rang....
"hello *going-to-die-voice*"\
"ah min ar, where r u?"
"....."
"...."
our conversation went on.
my family were so worried bout me.
felt so bad rite now.
sry!

now i felt better. thanks dear! for comforting me!!
=)

then juz nw during dinner time, ah leong kuku came.
he let me try something really awesome and funny!!
hahahaahahhahaha. u all shld try tht.
it works.
thank you!!!
i dunno hw m i going to live w/out u. i mean when i'm going to other place to study.
even to kl ir anywhere.
i'm going to miss u.
and u cant tam me like u used to tam me!! =( =( =(



btw, i have something to tell daddy mummy too..
i;ve done my best and no regrets.
and thank you so much for all the things u've gave me.
these things are the things tht not ALL of the parents can give to the children.
sorry if i disappoint u guys,
i will try harder next time.
so i can get scholarship and reduce ur burden.
muackz.<3
love lots.


I LOVE ALL OF U!!
must continue support and love me!!
and the most important!!!
be by my side whenever i need u!!!


<3 <3 <3

OMFG~ GG season 3 *coming soon*

OMFG!!

gosisp girl is back!

my ex-most-favorite-idol. *smirks*
actually she was my role model.



First of all,

Casper Meets Wendy







Cadet Kelly







The lizzie Mcguire Movie *love it*







Cheaper By the Dozen




Agent Cody Banks (all time Favorite)









the fairy tale-A Cinderella Story







raise your voice *thumbs up*






then material girls with haylie duff(her sister)




AND NOW,



guess wat?!
hilary duff is one of the guest star of Gossip Girl Season 3!
hehe.

















Hilary duff is joining Gossip Girl for a multi-episode arc, according to EW.cm’s Ausiello Files.

Duff will play Olivia Burke, a movie star who enrolls at NYU — and will end up rooming with Vanessa (Jessica Szohr). That should be fun. How much you wanna bet that Duff’s movie star character is totally going to rub Vanessa the wrong way. Should make for some good laughs!

Duff will debut in Gossip Girl’s fourth episode in season 3, slated to air Oct. 5.

so look up for this girl. i'm freaking excited!

she'll hav some hot scenes with dan humphrey(Penn Badgley).
*cool*
no offense to those ppl who thinks serena and dan are perfect couple.
actually i think serena and dan are perfectly together too.
but i'm so excited to c how does it look like when hilary and dan are together.
=)

my baby justin

My baby justin also sick.
i think he's the one that spread the germs for me.
shin yee also responsible for my sickness..
haha

~Hope that both of us will get well soon~





*hugs and kisses*

xoxo, maine

busy busy busy

These are the photos taken during the hols.
i noe its been awhile d.
but no point taking the photos and not posting them up my blog.
hehe

v went to genting..=)




took a few photos using my mum's i-phone




brandon's birthday


last wed group studied ar maine;s hse w/ sy
ended up... ...



oopssss...LOL



then last sat, i fetched yun, yee and cc to queensbay to get some ICE CREAM!!*all time favourite*



yun and cc went down to get for us, while me and shinee juz stayed in the car bcuz i dunno how to get into the car park. afraid that i'll scratch my mum's CRV.

i'm sick.. going to bed soon.
not going to school tmr.
ta everybody
♥nights♥

xoxo, maine

thank you

hi everybody
i never got criticized by anyone for awhile already
i'm so glad that i hav a friend that will remind me when i did something wrong once awhile.
omg! WHAT I"VE DONE..nehh..ntg actually. haha.
i would like to say THANK YOU to u
u're the best-est friend that i ever had
although sometimes u juz try to hint about it.
but i'm not that dumb that i cant get wat u're trying to say *winks*
THANK YOU for changing me to a better person
fyi everybody, its FOC free of charge
how glad am i to hav this friend.
a TRUE friend =D
this is what friends are for right?
she understands me well bcuz every assumptions or guesses that she made.
its 100% identical v what's on my mind.
where can u get this kinda friend nowadays.♥

p/s, sister, oopppsss....*inside joke*






xoxo, maine